The past three years has been a journey towards self discovery and endless self examination.. Never ending "why" and "what went wrong?".. And till now I am still unable to find the right words to describe just how did I get to where I am now. I guess, there will never be any words good enough to illustrate them...
The only thing I know is I am here because this is where I am suppose to be..
Right now, I am pursuing the things I need to finish.. tie-ing up loose ends.. rebuilding what has been devastated.. and forging ahead and moving on..
from that moment way back 2009 to where I am now, there has been bumps, storms and unexpected trials designed to be strong enough to test anyone's will power whether to hold on or to let go. There has been heartaches, painful enough to break anyone. But I have and never will be just anyone.
Perhaps, "happily ever after" doesn't need a prince, a knight or Mr. right..after all not all prince are charming.. Not all Knights are in shining armor, and not all Mr. Right are right for me.. Perhaps, he is just an ordinary guy, flawed, broken and lost, just waiting for someone to find him to heal the wounds he harbors deep in his soul.. perhaps he is that man, who masks his fears in bravado, that man who hurts you over and over to test just how much love you have to offer.. and perhaps he is just that man..
At my current vantage point, my life is so far removed from being a fairy tale. Nevertheless, like many others, during my unguarded moments, I catch myself dreaming that some day, i will have my "happily ever after"..
